Kill me, again

Today I understood the meaning of 'Breathtaking'
I have seen people use it and
I have used it myself all the time
It was no more than an adjective to me
until today when it became a phenomena.

My eyes captured an image
and my mind processed it
That image so much stirred my emotions
that my system broke down
and my mind hanged.

Nothing. Nil. Zero. Zilch.
I was still
My heart won't beat
I couldn't breathe
I was frozen. Totally blank.

I saw myself from another dimension
and I found myself dead.
Wow! She killed me again.

And then, I take a breath
I feel the air gushing in my lungs
My system reboots
and I'm alive again.
After this 'Breathtaking' moment, I wait
I wait, to be killed again.

I see myself from another dimension
What a way to die!
Dead in one beautiful moment
No remembrance of the past
Not a touch of grief
No guilt, regrets and pain of the past
It's like there is no past
You are just born in that moment

Dead, with no consideration for the future
No anxiety and tension for what time may bring
I am dead beyond the realms of time
Dead in a moment of ecstasy
What a way to die!
What a moment to die!

She kills me again and again
but now the moment of truth has come
She has to go and I can't be with her
except in these deaths and reincarnations

It's such a paradox
I've to wait for time to pass
so that I can live a timeless moment

Nonetheless, tomorrow
Ah! tomorrow
Tomorrow, She will kill me
and I'll be alive again.